I think about the events of my life often.
Not in a way that requires me to be completely self-centered.
I just think about how each moment has been perfectly timed. Without fail the events of my past have led me to the most precious and perfect present.
Yes, I like alliteration.
In the past I have longed for many things. Most specifically, to work for an international non-profit and to live in a big city like New York or Chicago. In fact, high school Hayley would be seriously disappointed and confused to find present Hayley living in Nashville.
In my short 24 years I have done more than high school Hayley could have dreamed. I don’t have to list the things because I do that all too often. That’s when it becomes self-centered. I will say, though, that I am exceptionally grateful. God has blessed me with a path that has been filled with adventure, love and beautiful people.
Going forward into this new year I want to stop more often and be in the moment. While its good to look ahead, its not always good to be constantly looking through the periscope. If the past has taught me anything, its that no matter what happens its exactly what I need. Even if I can’t piece together why that is at the time.
God hears us all when we speak to Him. So often we confuse our present disappointment with Him not hearing. I’m just one person with one opinion, but I can safely say that He is always answering our prayers. But with much more wisdom and much better timing than our hearts and brains can comprehend.
My life is more than what I want it to be. Thank goodness for that. As my wants are rarely what I need.
